Update #3 by MomOf9+2 at 1:58 pm on Wed 6/10/2015  Yes, please keep praying and thanks for doing do. I decided to go back to Washington with the kids here. My husband here has been verbally abusive and has issues with anger stemming from a depndance on alcohol and he won't face the hurt of his past and get help. I love him and don't want a divorce but he is not in support of this decision and may file for a divorce after I leave. It's not like I can just go across town to restore relationship. They live on the other side of the country. I don't know how long I'll stay or if I'll be back. I consider myself to still be married. I think that the separation might bring my husband to a place where he finally gets and receives the help he needs. I married him just eight months after my first husband died. I see that God gave me an out to not have to lie to my kids but I felt trapped and couldn't back out of the decision I made to come here. God has done an amazing job of taking care of us and growing us and the kids while we've been here. I can't say for sure if I'm doing the right thing. I am numb. His own mom and aunt said I was. They like me and want the best for me. I'm just taking things one day at a time.